Irony lang. Sa tingin ko. :)

                         I got no viewers, got no friends here in g+ whom I am familiar with. I like it though. It feels like I can scream to the whole world what I undergo in and the thoughts I am afraid to tell to the people around me ‘coz I fear that they would find me weird especially that my thoughts are every so often different from the norm of the society. Anyway don’t fret… from now on, I will be less stiff. I will be more,.. more known, more expressive, more open. I believe it is already time to go beyond the boundaries of my comfort zone. Well I used to be so shy and timid especially when I converse with people, I am uncomfortable being around them and I had the fear of them knowing me too much that’s why I always hid something- a vast percentage of my persona.  I don’t know why I was/am like that. I’m not anti-social, I even love the society despite it’s’ shortcomings. Its just that probably is because I always want something to keep fro myself, not giving out all the details..I reserve it to myself, the information I keep it. But I think I know why, really… Sure it is because when I was a kid I was limited when it comes to a lot of things, I got nothing left for myself.. likely. 

Well... I dedicate this song to the guy who make all things happen...in our relationship. Indeed, I don't know how to smile anymore if ever I lose him again. 

<3 

I Can't Smile Without You by Karen Carpenters

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sleep
I don't even talk to people I mean
And I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
But you must know what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
You brightened my day
who'd believe you were part of a dream
That only seems light years away

and you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
And you must know what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

Some people say that happy this way
That something it's hard to find
Into the new leaving the old behind me

And i feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
And you must know what i'm going through
I just can't smile without you

Into the new leaving the old behind me

And I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
And you must know what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

Good Upshot of Departure

               My mom left 3 months ago to take care of my “Lola” who just got home from Arizona. Well, she had planned to stay in Batanes for good. At first, I was really not pleased knowing mom was going to leave me. Well not to mention, I had always been such a dependent daughter--in all aspects. And surely, things would be way different; no more "gala", shopping, "kwentuhan" and more!! But then of course I understand.  hihihi :DD I love my grandlola too and I want the best quality of care for her and that is my Mom's forte. So okay, prior to her departure, I didn’t give that too much weight on her presence...it was a usual thing having her around. It's just later on that I realized how I miss my mom!  Anyway, thank good Lord God I am adjusting very well hell yeah \m/ ! I think though that this was a good upshot of my Mom leaving me with my “Ate”. Since I can proudly say that I am more independent now and more importantly, I am way MORE responsible now. Aside from those things, I get to manage my own money. My mom just sends me my allowance every month then it’s my choice to spend it according to how I want it to be spent!..nice thing about it is that I learn how to handle financial matters well and I get to be more thrifty. Well…I don’t know I just feel like I need to, since I am miles away from my mom and she would not be happy if she learn that I just spend my money on such pointless spending. 
             So far so good... Everything's fine.